The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

I'll be the first to admit it. When I hear of a book or movie that everyone is talking about, I go through three stages:

What are they talking about? 
I'm not going to read/watch it, it probably isn't good.
Dammit, I have to know WHY they are talking about it.

Admittedly, there have been both wins and losses in this mindless pursuit. Win - The City of Bones and all the following novels, Batman Begins. Major losses - Twilight, Fifty Shades of Grey, and Napoleon Dynamite.

But, I must concede that this novel, The Fault in Our Stars, is one of the best things the internet has ever convinced me to read. I was already a John Green fan, but this novel puts him a distinct category very few authors/actors can say they belong in - characters that made me tear up.

Now, not to say I am a heartless hind, but let's face it, it has to be extremely well written for me to get so emotionally invested in a character that I shed a tear. I often get very angry (cue Sirius Black's death), or simply sad (Dumbledore,but let's face it, once that black, rotten hand was mentioned, you knew nothing good was going to happen), or when George R.R. Martin killed the direwolves (I hate when they hurt animals). I do remember distinctly tearing up while reading Bridge to Teribithia  and demanding my father read it so he could explain to me why she had to die. *He never did and to this day I still don't get it*. But, oh, this novel, this novel got me. I didn't bawl my eyes out or sob into a handkerchief, my nose running all uncontrollably. No, it was worse than that. It was the silent tears slowly streaming down your face while your throat gets all tight; the kind of crying we try to hide or prevent from happening because "come on, the person isn't even real!". Well played, John Green, well played sir.

First of all, the novel immediately begins with telling you the main character, Hazel, has cancer. So, naturally, I braced myself for death. If not her, someone. I mean, the first things she does is go to a support group for people who have cancer and immediately tells us about death. So, yeah, someone is obviously going to die. She has a cancer that affects her lungs and thus has to carry an oxygen tank with her everywhere, but she deals really well. (She also makes some awesome comments on the perceived coping mechanisms of those with cancer which I found well written).

He writes about Hazel and how she meets this boy Augustus. Augustus lost his leg to cancer and came to accompany a mutual friend of theirs to this support group. Long story short (only because I don't want to give away any spoilers. Do not interpret this as me Yada Yada Yada -ing through some boring stuff) girl meets boy, boy likes girl, girl likes boy.

One of the fascinating parts of the novel is the way these two characters connect. On the night that they first meet, Augustus asks Hazle what her favorite book is. She tells him (it is not a real book, dammit), he reads its, they bond. Then, as her "wish" (actually his, but that is explained in the novel), they get to go to Amsterdam to meet the author. This has been her dream; she wants him to tell her the ending to his novel. You see, he wrote about a dying girl and the book just ends in the middle of a sentence...very thought provoking, yes?

Well, let me tell you something. If there was ever a time I felt connected to a character is in this book...and unfortunately I cannot tell you about it. But trust me, I know this feeling all too well. When I met the author I idolized, let's just say Hazel and I had very similar experiences.

I desperately want to go through this book event by event and tell you how much i loved it all, but I can't, because then you wouldn't read it, and I want everyone to read this book. EVERYONE. It is that good. But, I warn you, you will get emotional. It is not the death that makes you cry, or at least, that is not what made me cry. It is how the death is viewed. It discusses all the nastier parts of emotions when we are dying; we all know they exist, but once we put a voice to them you feel them in ways that your thoughts alone could never do justice to.

So, moral of this entry? Read this book. Seriously, it is an amazing story. The thing I love best about it is that (I believe) the story isn't to get you to think about death at all, but how you live your life. Which, let's face it, we all could use some time reflecting on.



A note on the cover: Definitely did not make me think I was going to cry.

Inheritance by Christopher Paolini

It's official. I have reached that state where you finished a book series and now you aren't quite sure what to do with your life. I finished Inheritance and I feel a void. Now what do I do?

I absolutely loved this series. I originally read Eragon while in college. My dad read it and told me to, and I am glad I did.  I regret not reading Inheritance sooner. Though I bought it when it came out, I kept putting it off, even after I re-read the previous three.

In the final book of this saga, we have Eragon and the Varden marching toward Galbatorix's city, finally putting into action their plans to usurp him from his thrown and free Alagaesia from his tyranny. Through their campaign, the must deal with nightly attacks from Murtagh and Thorn, seizing cities that have been magically protected by Galbatorix, fight soldiers that have been enchanted to feel no pain, and figure out how to bring down the most (magically) powerful ruler that ever existed. All this weight falls upon Eragon and Saphira's shoulders and they are not sure they are fully capable of it.

The conclusion to this saga is epic and well imagined. It is not your basic good-guy-kills-bad-guy-and-becomes-new-leader hero stereotype. The events that unfold are excellent, and semi-unpredictable. You know Eragon is going to go in and defeat Galbatorix, but no way can you predict exactly how. The twist on the defeat is well created, and it adds important dimension.

One reason that it took me so long to finish this book is that there were so many battles. After rapidly rereading the first three and all the details there,  I just desperately wanted to know how it ended! At first, reading all the battles seemed tedious to me. I just wanted to skip the rising action and get to the climax, so I stopped reading it. Once I picked it back up, and refreshed my memory, I was immediately drawn into the book unlike before.  From this refreshed viewpoint, the I saw the importance of the battles once again and couldn't put the book down. So, if at any point you read this, pay attention to the details of the battles, for they are not superfluous.

The one thing about this book that I absolutely loved I can't share because it is a major spoiler. But, what it does is create an immense sense of hope and this ties together the overall meaning and theme of the saga and helps it end on a note that leaves you wanting more without the feeling like you have been robbed of a satisfactory ending, something that is very difficult to achieve in a series, especially a fantasy series. 

On another note, I just found out that in a new edition of Inheritance, a letter from Jeod, one of the characters, give a further explanation as to what happens after the final scene of the book. I shall have to track this edition down and read it myself.

Triangles By Ellen Hopkins

For the first time, I honestly do not know how I feel about a book. Huh. Noted on calendar.

I am not sure if it is the context of what is happening in my real life or not that is affecting my inability to choose a stance on this book, but I got to tell you I hate/love this book.

Reasons I Hate It:

This story is about three women: Andrea, Marissa, and Holly. Each lives a life that has some tragic/dramatic element to it, all dealing with men and sexual relations.

Andrea is a single mother who just has crappy luck with men. Marissa is a devoted mother of a four-year-old dying of SMA and a wife of an adulterous husband. Holly is a bored suburban housewife looking for excitement and finds it with (an)other(s). I loved and despised all of them.

Marissa annoys me because she forgave her husband. As CeeLo says "f*** that". He had an affair. Not a little one either. Five years. Multiple cross global trips. LOVE. He stayed because of their daughter, but come on. Staying in a house is not the same as maintaining a relationship. Straight up.

Holly annoys me because she is a dirty, lying, ho-bag. She has an enviable life, and instead of just being honest and admitting to her husband that she is unhappy, so goes out and finds "fulfillment" with others. I think she totally deserves what comes to her in the end. It's called karma. I mean, I understand just because I find her life amazing doesn't mean it makes her happy. I do. I just don't get why she isn't honest.

Andrea annoys me least. At least she is not the complete catalyst for her problems. The only thing I don't like about her is that her loyalties are skewed. But, in the end, I find her much more forgivable. Jace was dropped like a hot ember by Holly. At least Andrea didn't seek it out.

Why I Loved It:

Andrea's dedication to her daughter is amazing. She really does everything she can to make her daughter's life as good as possible. Andrea is also strong. She left her dysfunctional marriage and abusive relationship to make herself a better person. Her stint in bed with Jace seems fitting to me. Two scarred hearts finding solace with each other.

Marissa's dedication trumps Andrea's, but it is the discovery of who she is as a person that drew me into her character. The love she has for her family, the love she lost for her family, her undeniable sense of purpose; it is these things that make you empathize with her. She is a remarkably strong woman.

Holly....I like her vivaciousness. Her self-awareness is both awe-inspiring and a warning. The warning is that you cannot allow yourself to become so completely wrapped up in yourself that you lose sight of those you care about. I like Holly least because she reminds me of my mother.

The writing in this novel is amazing. Hopkin's style is inimitable and draws you in. The flowing verse grabs your attention and keeps the fast pace. The word choice is excellent, and you do become vested in the story. As always, I loved the intertwining multiple perspectives. I love multiple perspective novels.

The raciness is notched up a bit in Hopkin's first "adult" novel, but the tone is still the same: grabbing taboo topics and putting them on display for all to see.  She did excellently. Warning: there are a few sex scenes/erotica writing that can make you blush...

As far as this goes as a companion to Tilt, it didn't at all shed any light on to that novel to me. I feel like I connected better with the adults than the teens with this plot line.

The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern

The night circus is a place of magic and intrigue. It appears overnight, as if appearing out of thin air. It stays for an undetermined amount of time, and disappears as quickly as it appeared, no one quite sure where it will appear next. Though, it is not your typical circus; it consists of many tents instead of one. Each of these tents contains its own individual magical atmosphere.

This story focuses on two young magicians/illusionist, Celia and Marco. When they were both young, they were bound into a competition. Celia's father bound her while Marco was selected from an orphanage by his mentor to play his role.  The competition is vague, and only the mentors truly understand how it is played. The venue for this competition is the Night Circus. The magicians materialize fantastic feats of illusion and magic, each creation akin to a move in chess. Though neither of them know the rules, they know they must keep creating, trying to outdo one another. What they don't realize is that they are not the only two affected by this challenge; every member of the circus has become intertwined.

What was originally meant to pit these two against each other has instead brought them together. Each new tent creation bringing them closer, like the words on a love note. They are no longer competing, but completing, each creation a mixture of each of them. This threatens the contest, and neither can foresee how it is meant to end and what it means for the love they have created.

This story was so intriguing that I hated putting it down and I feel that my above description does not do it justice. There are so many things I could say, but I want to keep the mystery that propels the story forward. The concepts of their creations are fantastic, and described within the novel in such detail that you can picture it almost as if you have actually seen a photograph of it in real life.

The thing that drew me most into this book were the creations of the magicians. The imagination behind the tents is fantastic. The level of the illusions/magic make the reader have to doubt the basis that the attendees of the circus were so easily duped into thinking the real was fake and vice versa, but I still admire the creativeness of it all. I warn you, if you are the type of reader who needs everything explained and accounted for, you may not enjoy this. But, if you the reader who is able to see the forest beyond the trees and can create solid pictures with the help of well developed imagery, this novel should be a delight for you as it was for me.

The Scorch Trials by James Dashner

This book is the second book in the Maze Runner Trilogy. While I loved the first one, I found this one to be a little lackluster. Note, if you have not read The Maze Runner you may not want to continue reading this entry; it does contain some spoilers. Also, you may not understand some of the references I am making to people/places/things.

The book begins with Thomas, the Gladers, and Teresa having successfully escaped from the maze. They think they are all set and ready to enter their real world again, but to their dismay they do not get to. They instead are once again put through another trial, The Scorch Trial.

The Scorch is a vast area of land that used to be near the Equator. After the solar flares (we learn this in book one), this area of land is left desolate and barren. The challenge that Thomas and the Gladers face is having to cross the Scorch, in two weeks, and arrive at the "safe haven". Not only do they have to deal with crossing a desert with a small amount of food and unrealistically smaller supply of water, they have to travel one hundred miles total in two weeks, on foot, and fight off Cranks.  Cranks are humans that have been infected with the Flare. The longer you have been infected, the more psychotic you are. Oh, did I mention that WICKED has conveniently infected all of them as well for additional motivation to succeed in the trial (read: do our little test or die)?

While I was completely intrigued by the first book, this second one didn't really draw me in. At one point I voluntarily put it down to grade papers. That, my friends, is a first. But, after finishing and reflecting, I think I know why it didn't draw me in as well. The first novel was fully of mystery and suspense. We didn't know why they were in the maze, what was happening in the outside world, who Thomas was/is supposed to be, or if they were ever going to get out of the maze. It was interesting to follow the characters and discover with them. For this sequel, we already knew Thomas was telepathic and had worked with WICKED, what the challenge the Gladers had to face was, and we knew to expect many of the things that happened. There was much less suspense and mystery for me. I found it to be very predictable. Also, some parts dragged on for far too long.  I get it, Cranks are crazy, they want to kill people, run Thomas run. Even the bio-mechanical engineered monsters at the end were lame. It took the Gladers two whole years to figure out the Grievers. It took them less than two minutes to figure out these beasties. Finally, what turned me off was what they change in the dynamics and relationships of the characters. They seemed much more detached in this novel, and as a result, so was I.

The book ends on a cliff hanger, as should be expected since we know there is yet another book. I, however, am not as anxious to read this one. I am instead going to read another novel in between, hoping that the time I spend reading another novel will amp my curiosity about the ending of this story. There is also a prequel, to explain why the maze had to be created in the first place. We shall have to see if the third leaves me wanting more information enough to read that one.

The Maze Runner by James Dashner

It was suggested to me after my last post that instead of blogging about series as a whole after I have finished it, I should blog about each book individually. So, I start with bringing you the first book in The Maze Runner Trilogy, The Maze Runner.

This book was recommended to me after I finished The Hunger Games because it shares the post-apocalyptic/dystopian theme that I love so very much. I started this book Thursday and found it very difficult to put down.

The plot centers around a place named "The Glade". The Glade is in the center of a maze. Within this maze live a group of boys. No one remembers how they got there or why, but the longest surviving members have been there for about two years. Naturally, their main goal is to get out of there. But, for the past two years they have not been able to find a way out of the maze. It doesn't help that the walls move every night. To top it off, they are forced to stay within the Glade portion of the maze at night because the walls close. But, that is better than the alternative, because if you are caught in the maze at night you become the prey of "Grievers", half flesh, half robotic creature bent on killing you with their multiple appendages and poisonous needles.

Ever month a new boy is delivered the Glade. The story opens with Thomas being delivered. Like the other boys he has no solid memory of the life before. He can remember images, the way things work, but not his family or his last name; his memory has purposefully been wiped. The arrival of Thomas seems normal, like every other newbie that shows up. But, it's not. After Thomas arrives, nothing is the same.

Thomas is important, but he can't remember why. Everything about the maze seems familiar, but he can't figure it out. Then, the next day, another person arrives. Not only is it unprecedented to get two newbies in as many days, but this one is a girl. She arrive bearing a foreboding note: EVERYTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE. Will they be able to survive? Will they all die? Will they get out of the maze?

This story is completing riveting. How the characters figure out what is happening to them and why is intriguing and will keep you guessing.  I absolutely cannot wait to read the next book in this series, The Scorch Trials.

Hush, Hush Series by Becca Fitzpatrick

I started reading this series two years ago when a student thrust Hush, Hush into my hands and swore her life that it was the best book she ever read.. The fourth and finale book, Finale, came out this past October.  I was very eager to finish the series, so when the opportunity arose for me to get the fourth book, I snagged it and read it as quickly as possible.

The whole series is centered around two characters, Patch and Nora. They meet in high school and immediately you know there is something unique about Patch. Nora is drawn to him like a moth to a flame, and he isn't exactly staying away. He has the whole bad boy vibe down and that only draws her in more.

Later we find out that Patch is a fallen angel and Nora is a Nephilim, which is the offspring of a fallen angel and a human.  The whole series focuses on all the issues that arise for them because they are not meant to be together. Not like Romeo and Juliet, star-crossed lovers, not meant to be, but on opposite sides of a eons old war not meant to be. They have to constantly fight to be together through crazy situations, back stabbing friends, mind tricks, possessions and devilcraft. Patch has to deal with his past catching up to him while Nora has to figure out how to stay alive long enough to have a future. They fight to be together for a love that runs blood deep, literally.

The struggles Nora and Patch face were interesting. The inclusion of the back story of their existences was very intriguing to me. This series actually launched my interest into the concept of fallen angels, which unbeknownst to me at the time, has quite a market. I like the concept of the fallen angel because it veered away from the whole vampire thing that has blown up the market. While I used to love reading vampire lore, it was back when they still killed people for fun, pre-glittering in the sun. So, as a paranormal/fantasy/sci-fi lover, I liked finding a niche so to speak  to learn more lore about.

I will admit I thought the first book of this series was the best. It grabbed your attention and made you want to know what was going to happen. After that, though, I got over it. The second book focused too much on them being apart and Patch having to be the antagonist (read: asshole). This made me lose a lot of the connection I felt to the main characters. I though the third book was the last one, so after I read it this summer I was really disappointed. Then, silly me found out there was a fourth. While I liked the third and fourth, I could put them down. I found the beginning and middles were good, but the drama in the relationship between Patch and Nora got old to me. Granted, these books are not aimed at my demographic, so perhaps the teenagers will be able to find them more relative, but for me I was very much wanting them to just get over it and talk about the issues and move on. I don't do drama in real life well, and I feel this is beginning to role over into my literary interests. 

The characters were well developed, and I like that it ended with no strings dangling in the wind making you wonder. Like I said, overall I liked the series, but much like the Hunger Games, I feel the best work was in the first one.